i’ve realized.

i’ve been thinking and i’ve realized that there are some people in my life that i put way to much energy into. people that i’m not really sure deserve that energy. people that i want in my life and i don’t think they really want to be in mine, or they do, just when its convenient for them. so i’ve decided i’m done with the efforts. things will never be how i thought i wanted them at one point. i’ve realized things would never work out. i’ve realized that time was there…it just wasn’t taken. i’ve realized that sometimes “what ifs” are probably better left as “what ifs”. i’ve realized that a lot of people just want what they can’t have, once they have it..they don’t really want it anymore. the challenge, the chase is what they enjoy. and i’ve realized that a lot of people just really need to be loved and enjoyed by someone else, someone to fulfill them because on their own they don’t have that. anyone who will give them that, they will take them. anything that walks across their path, something that has even the tiniest appeal they will take it. but love and fulfillment isn’t found like that, that will just lead to more emptiness and loneliness. 

good night.