May 2009
1 post
such an inspiring person!
so i’m reading a book called “Crazy Love” and theres a part in it thats called “Are You Ready?” there’s a story of a girl and it makes me cry every time i read it. this is what it says.
Brooke Bronkowski was a beautiful fourteen-year-old girl who was in love with Jesus. When she was in junior high, she started a Bible study on her campus. She spent her...
April 2009
3 posts
“For i know the plans i have for you, they are plans for good and not for...”
“whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy. For when your...”
i hope you find your way.
i haven’t written on this thing in a while. mostly because i used to only write when bad things were happening to me or when i was down. it was my way of venting. BUT. i have decided that i need to use this to spread the word of GOD. to write all the miracles i’ve heard or even seen. about 2 or 3 months ago i was sitting at work and received a text message. so i open this text message...
January 2009
1 post
singleness.
its not a word…but its what i am. i am one single person…i don’t have another half. i don’t have someone who grabs my hand and holds it for hours. i don’t have someone whose arms i lay in at night. i don’t have someone to listen to all my hopes and dreams. someone whose simple smile just makes me happy. and about a month ago that saddened me. i felt lonely and...
December 2008
2 posts
changes.
lately i’ve been wanting something more. i need to do more with my life. i need to have more experiences, i need to travel and see this world. it scares me so much because there is not a guarantee on this life and i can’t just let it pass me by. i want to find love and be content. i want to have a life that i could write a book about if i wanted to. i don’t want to be lazy and...
November 2008
6 posts
ssoooo excited...
all my friends will be home and i get to see them all!!!!! its gonna be a wonderful weekend/reunion.
“take chances, take a lot of them because honestly, no matter where you end up...”
“you have to be willing to get happy about nothing.”
– andy warhol.
“you’ve only got one life to live…but a million ways to live it.”
disgraceful.
i think that its really fuckin sad and pathetic that this election is really deep down about race. all i here on tv right now is black..white…black…white….it is 2008 people get the fuck over it! i hope you all voted not for race but for the person you think will help our country get out of this time. its going to take a whole hell of a lot more than 4 years to do that…and...
October 2008
9 posts
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
tomorrow jenna and i will be driving to D.C. for the weekend. i am so excited to get outta here for a few days, to have some new scenery, to just have nothing but fun and clear my head. this is the first year that i am doing something super fun for halloween and i can’t wait. tomorrow i will transform into Bret Michaels..and i will take those D.C. streets by storm. woohooo D.C. here we...
2008...
in this past year so many things have happened…so many things in my life changed. i’ve dealt with a death, a life taken by cancer. it hit our family so hard. i’ve experienced pain and loss. i’ve experienced a failed relationship, something that was so difficult, but i know that it was probably the best thing. i’ve gained new friends and started my career. i’ve...
“i guess relationships are just funny. its impossible to figure out why some work...”
– the book of luke.
“the greatest thing in life is finding someone who knows all your mistakes and...”
i think today was quite possibly the longest day of my life. each hour seemed to just creep by, i’m so exhausted. i hope my mind will be able to sleep tonight. i haven’t been sleeping well at all for the exception of last night. i hate the nights that you’re sound asleep and all of a sudden its morning and your alarm is going off and its time to get up. hopefully tonight will be...
sometimes i wonder if i didn’t try hard enough. sometimes i wonder if it even takes any trying at all. sometimes i wonder if i was too stubborn and wasn’t compassionate enough. sometimes i wonder what things would be like if i didn’t end it all. sometimes i miss it and sometimes i wish things could have been better. sometimes i wonder if i was just too scared to give my whole...
“things change. and friends leave. and life doesn’t stop for anybody.”
September 2008
6 posts
Pack Up the Moon.
these are passages from the most recent book i’ve read. its called Pack Up the Moon. i loved it.
- pain is hard to put into words and in life there is always pain. its as natural as birth or death. pain makes us who we are, it reaches us and tames us, it can destroy and it can save us.
-its funny how the world works, how we win and lose, how we can never really know whats ahead though we...
i wish.
i wish i didn’t hurt you. i wish you were happy. i wish that none of this happened the way it did/is. i wish you weren’t destroying yourself and i wish i didn’t feel like its my fault. i wish life was easier. i wish there was no such thing as pain. i wish it could have worked out..i wish you were stronger. i wish tears didn’t fill my eyes when i think about it all. i wish...
things in my journal...
“venting”
how did i get here, to this place i don’t know? confusion and hurt but its also soothing my soul. i feel so lost but i know right where i am. between heartache and happiness, tears and relief, loneliness and loss. life isn’t easy. but maybe it should be. love should be easy, something you just feel not that you force. happiness should just come, it...
i've realized.
i’ve been thinking and i’ve realized that there are some people in my life that i put way to much energy into. people that i’m not really sure deserve that energy. people that i want in my life and i don’t think they really want to be in mine, or they do, just when its convenient for them. so i’ve decided i’m done with the efforts. things will never be how i...
life has a funny way of working out when you least...
i had the best day yesterday..i woke up and made myself breakfast. i had pancakes and coffee. i ate my breakfast in the backyard there was such a nice breeze and not a cloud in the sky. then i brought lunch to jens house and i got to meet colt for the first time. i totally fell in love with him. hes such a perfect little bundle of joy. i am so happy for her, shes been through so much and her life...
August 2008
6 posts
“perhaps imagination is only intelligence having fun. - Scialabba.”
cinderella and the prince..
so i was messaging a new friend about love being a fairy tale…and i told him i didn’t think there was such a thing…that life isn’t like the movies and people just thought everything would be ok once you got married….but i’ve recently changed my mind. i think life isn’t a fairy tale but i do think there is fairy tale love. everything isn’t always...
time to get away.
i am so excited. tomorrow after work i will be laying in the sun for 5 days relaxing and loving life. i really hope that tropical storm holds out cause i really need this vacation. i need to get away and clear my head. get away from the life i live. i’ve been so busy at work this past week and my feet have started hurting at the end of the day. which is a good thing…but now its time...
“why is truth so hard to find in this world?”
lately i have just been feeling so weird. not down exactly, but not happy either. i feel like there is something missing. something in my life that i want. maybe its love, maybe i need change. or maybe its just that i need a vacation. sometimes i wish things in life were just a little happier. i wish people didn’t screw people over, i wish people were just kind. i wish there was more...