such an inspiring person!

so i’m reading a book called “Crazy Love” and theres a part in it thats called “Are You Ready?” there’s a story of a girl and it makes me cry every time i read it. this is what it says. 

Brooke Bronkowski was a beautiful fourteen-year-old girl who was in love with Jesus. When she was in junior high, she started a Bible study on her campus. She spent her babysitting money on Bibles so she could give them out to her unsaved friends. Youth Pasters who heard about this brought her boxes of Bibles to give away. Brooke wrote the following essay when she was about twelve;

                   ” SINCE I HAVE MY LIFE BEFORE ME”

“I’ll live my life to the fullest. I’ll be happy. I’ll brighten up. I will be more joyful than i have ever been. I will be kind to others. I will loosen up. I will tell others about Christ. I will go on adventures and change the world. I will be bold and not change who i really am. I will have no troubles but instead help others with their troubles.

You see, I’ll be one of those people who live to be history makers at a young age. Oh i’ll have moments, good and bad, but i will wipe away the bad and only remember the good. In fact thats all i remember, just good moments, nothing in between, just living my life to the fullest. I’ll be one of those people who go somewhere with a mission, an awesome plan, a world-changing plan. and nothing will hold me back. I”ll set an example for others, i will pray for direction.

I have my life before me. I will give others the joy i have and God will give me more joy. I will do everything God tells me to do. I will follow the footsteps of God. I will do my best!!!”

During her freshman year in high school, Brooke was in a car accident. Her life on earth ended when she was just fourteen, but her impact didn’t. Nearly 1,500 people attended Brooke’s memorial service. People from her public high school read poems she had written about her love for God. Everyone spoke of her example and her joy. 

Franis Chan shared the gospel and invited those who wanted to know Jesus to compe up and give their lives to Him. There must have been at least 200 students on their knees at the front of the church  praying for salvation. Ushers gave a Bible to each of them. They were Bibles that Brooke had kept in her garage, hoping to give them out to all of her unsaved friends. In one day, Brooke led more people to the Lord than most ever will. In her brief fourteen years on earth, Brooke was faithful to Christ. Her short life was not wasted. The words from her essay seem prophetic: “You see, I’ll be one of those people who live to be history makers at a young age.”

What an amazing inspiration and a gift from God that little girl was! 

“For i know the plans i have for you, they are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. -Jeremiah 29:11”
“whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy. For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything.
James 1:2-4”

i hope you find your way.

i haven’t written on this thing in a while. mostly because i used to only write when bad things were happening to me or when i was down. it was my way of venting. BUT. i have decided that i need to use this to spread the word of GOD. to write all the miracles i’ve heard or even seen. about 2 or 3 months ago i was sitting at work and received a text message. so i open this text message and it was just a bible verse from an unknown number. so naturally i read it and said “what?” and i probably giggled a little mostly because it was so out of the blue and from a number i didn’t know. like who is this random person sending me a bible verse?  now i’ve always believed in God i used to be involved in the youth group when i was a young teenager, i even went on missions trips. but somewhere along the way i got lost in life. and at times i never knew where to turn, and i would only pray when things went bad..like please god do something about this i mean what the heck, why is this happening. it was never to just say THANK YOU for all i have. my parents started to tell my brothers and i that we need to start going back to church and started telling us we HAD to go with them no excuses. well i didn’t feel comfortable there anymore. so i texted this unknown number back and it was my friend tim. tim had turned his life over to God and i know that the lord told him to send me that text message. that sunday i met him and our friend steve at church and ive never turned back. you see…life is tough. and bad things happen all the time to good people. ever since i started going back to church, and turned my life over to the Lord i have never been more happy in my life. i now see all the blessings in my life and all the good..and even when there is bad i praise him because i know he has a plan for me and struggle makes our faith stronger. yes we go through things that you never think you’re gonna get over. we go through things that we will never ever understand..but if you trust in the lord, he will carry you through any situation you’re in and give you peace. he saves lives. my life has never been better. i am content in my life i have found that peace that i longed for, for so long. and its amazing. i couldn’t ask for more. if you’re reading this and you don’t believe, i hope that you find your way in this life before its too late for you. i hope that you turn your lives around, because if you give your life to him you have something far better waiting for you when you leave this earth. don’t be lost in the storm anymore. let the lord shine his light on you.

praise God! thank you Lord for all you are and all you have given us. 

singleness.

its not a word…but its what i am. i am one single person…i don’t have another half. i don’t have someone who grabs my hand and holds it for hours. i don’t have someone whose arms i lay in at night. i don’t have someone to listen to all my hopes and dreams. someone whose simple smile just makes me happy.  and about a month ago that saddened me. i felt lonely and slightly scared. like where and when is this whole love thing gonna happen for me. but..now..i’m content. i have started doing things i would have never done by myself. and it feels good. i like it. i feel like i am doing things for me. to better myself, my life. things that make me happy. i’m taking new steps in my life and i’m fine with singleness. one day love will find its way into my life. but until then i am……content.

changes.

lately i’ve been wanting something more. i need to do more with my life. i need to have more experiences, i need to travel and see this world. it scares me so much because there is not a guarantee on this life and i can’t just let it pass me by. i want to find love and be content. i want to have a life that i could write a book about if i wanted to. i don’t want to be lazy and let it all pass me by..because if i do that it’ll be gone before i know it. i think this will be my new years resolution. i will become more. i will be happy and free.

these people have been in my life for so many years. some for 13 or 14 years…all of them i have grown up with. seen them deal with heartbreak, seen them fall in love, get their licenses, graduate high school..experienced award things..cried with, laughed so hard with…done crazy things with, watch them make something of themselves and start their lives. i’ve made tons and tons of memories with each one of these people. when you have friends like this it doesn’t matter how long you haven’t seen or talked to them because you can just pick up right where you left off like nothing has ever changed. some of them aren’t in this picture…but i love them all so much and they will always be in my heart. 

these people have been in my life for so many years. some for 13 or 14 years…all of them i have grown up with. seen them deal with heartbreak, seen them fall in love, get their licenses, graduate high school..experienced award things..cried with, laughed so hard with…done crazy things with, watch them make something of themselves and start their lives. i’ve made tons and tons of memories with each one of these people. when you have friends like this it doesn’t matter how long you haven’t seen or talked to them because you can just pick up right where you left off like nothing has ever changed. some of them aren’t in this picture…but i love them all so much and they will always be in my heart. 


ssoooo excited…

all my friends will be home and i get to see them all!!!!! its gonna be a wonderful weekend/reunion. 

“take chances, take a lot of them because honestly, no matter where you end up and with who, it always ends up the way it should be. your mistakes make you who you are. you learn and grow with each choice you make. everything is worth it. say how you feel always. be you and be ok with it.”
“you have to be willing to get happy about nothing.”
— andy warhol.